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bah...

ever just get in one of those moods?? ya know, where youre just blah. i know of a baggily bum that knows this feeling rather well. things are going "well". still tons of drama at work. i feel that i function better when theres more. odd. as am i. boy situations are, well, dramatic as well. michael. i really do feel badly about what ive done to him. to have your heart ripped out and handed to you... must be rough. god, im such an asshole. i dont regret anything though. it just wasnt working, well, for me at least. hes not talking to me as much anymore. not that i blame him. i cant stand hurting him so much. he doesnt deserve this, what so ever.

...andrew. *smile* ...hes awesome. theres so many feelings there that where never there with michael. at least not in a mutual sense. im happy. and yet so numb...

im getting extra fat too. ugh. i was doing so well, until that fuckin x-mas bullshit. why does everyone have to bake cookies and give lots of yummy yummy chocolate. i dont even really care for chocolate all that much. youd never know from the amount i have consumed in the past month. yea, so, back to no eating again.

why do i have to be so insecure...??

...andrew. *smile*

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cailin_t
Jan. 10th, 2005 02:40 pm (UTC)
well, of course the mike thing sucks, but eh. andrew. :D
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